Monday, September 9, 2013
Dealing with jerkholes and praising the Lord
Oh. Well. I guess I'll write some more.
It really wouldn't be so bad if I weren't leading people. They* are the issue. They have all these "problems" and "needs" and "desires" and "children." Why can't they all just do everything I want and be at my beck and call? BLURG!
Well, okay, it's really not that bad. I love my team. I LOVE them. They are a great bunch of people that love and serve and live their lives. Yeah, sometimes they show up late and ignore my emails and do things incorrectly and break equipment and badmouth me and complain and forget they are supposed to be playing or running sound that morning, but so what! Ugh. Okay. Maybe I need to work through some of this.
There are some folks that are constantly late. And I get frustrated. I mean, I am the "Angry Worship Leader." But also, I'm very passive-aggressive. Instead of saying something, I just don't talk or make snide remarks. I'm a real gem, I know. I print them out a schedule and email them a schedule, and most weeks I also send an email to the team for the week. Ususally, when I send the weekly email, they are there. On time. Hmm.
Another thing that drives me insane is when people never respond to my emails. I mean ever. I try to plan the schedule out ahead of time, and they never respond and then ask to change the schedule all around after I've already published it. Ugh. I mean, I'm usually doing the schedule at the last minute, so they have PLENTY of time to let me know when they can sing or play. Ohp. Wait. That's me again. I just heard it. Moving on.
I especially love it when people complain. I mean, most everyone on the team (sound and visual folks included) only have to serve 1-2 times per month, but they act like I'm making them work 9-5, 6 days a week. I mean, I NEVER complain. Ever. Never ever...ever...
So, between my inconsistency and my bad attitude and my lack of communication, I'm creating an environment that is breeding inconsistency and bad attitudes and lack of communication. It's almost like being a good leader is crucial to creating a healthy atmosphere that invites worship. Who knew THAT?
I try so hard to be organized and patient and communicatey. But I let my emotions have control. When I don't spend enough time giving it to the Lord in prayer or praying for my people, or working on my communication and leadership, it shows. It also shows when I am doing those things, because usually when I do those things well, then I almost never have a problem. Good lesson, self!
Bottom line, it's hard for my worship and service team to serve and praise the Lord when they have to deal with a jerkhole leader. Get it together, Steed!
*Note: I embellished some of my issues for the sake of this blog post. My team is awesome and could most likely beat your team at anything. Except Cornhole. They suck at Cornhole.